Gone, But Not Alone

Today I went to Redeemer for Church. I helped lead worship with the Worleys and two other guys from that Church. I hadn't done it in a long time but I really do enjoy it. The pastor talked about baptism, but that isn't what exactly I focused on.

The pastor was talking about like status levels and he said "It doesn't work to run away." This got me thinking because the past few days I've been looking forward to going to college for just that, a clean start and I can just leave whatever is bothering me here in Spokane. Well it doesn't really work like that.

I can pack things into a bag to forget about but the bag full of memories and unsaid feelings will be left there to be dealt with. I can leave and go forward with life but its always going to be there. There is only one way to completely take care of things and that is by being straight forward. Right now I'm not sure I have the strength for that but I obviously forget that God's power is more than I can imagine. I'll be gone and feel like I'm alone but I won't be. God will be there. He is with me, and I am not alone.

This song was playing on the radio this morning on my way over to Redeemer. Its crazy how God works. Perfectly.

Not Afraid by Stephanie Smith:

I'm not afraid Not afraid not afraid

I’m not afraid not afraid not afraid

Sorry it’s over

I think it’s the best thing for now

I’m takin the memories

I don't want to leave them all behind

Some were good, some were bad, some were in between

But I gotta do what's right for me

And I'm not afraid

To walk away, let me go for the last time

I finally got it straight for the first time

Not afraid cause I know He’s there to meet me

So I'll be gone

I'll be gone, but not alone

Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh

I hate how it happened

But it just wasn't supposed to be

Lets not talk about it

Cause always looking back wont change a thing

Leave the good, leave the bad, and the in between

I’m gonna do what’s right for me

And I’m not afraid

To walk away let me go for the last time

I finally got it straight for the first time

Not afraid cause I know He’s there to meet me

So I'll be gone

I'll be gone, but not alone

It may not be easy

Cause at its best life is still hard

But He is with me

And I am not alone

Not afraid gotta go for the last time

I got it straight for the first time

I’ll be gone but not alone

To walk away let me go for the last time

Finally got it straight for the first time

Not afraid cause I know He’s there meet me

So I'll be gone

I'll be gone, but not alone

I'm not afraid

Don’t let me go for the last time

Finally got it straight for the first time

Not afraid cause I know He’s there meet me

So I'll be gone

I'll be gone, but not alone

I’ll be gone but not alone

I’ll be gone but not alone

I’ll be gone, be gone, be gone