Divided Highway

I don't know what has got me thinking so much lately but daily I see a fork in the road ahead of me. Two things in my life seem to head away from each other and I have to choose to either stay on the highway or to get off.

Let me clear up the metaphor for you. My career is the fast track, staying on the highway. Making all the right decisions to get exactly what I want to get me to where I want to be in life. But staying on this road will make me miss out on all the things that are on the side of the highway.

Getting off of this road is the way of family, relationships, community. I feel that by getting off of the highway I will be more deeply involved with the people around me, meeting their needs and being their servant.

I don't want to give up my dreams and goals but I am starting to feel that certain things need to become of a higher priority for the Kingdom of God. But is that still giving up? Am I making a compromise? Does this just give people the room to tell me 'I told you so?'

When I am at Church, Youth Group, and Campus Ministry I feel like its okay to be there. Its okay to want to be one of those poor but happy people, because those people are fully living in Christ. When I am at the barn in my classes I feel like to know you are successful you have to be willing to do what you need to at all costs. And that makes me sad. I don't want to push people out of my way so I can get to the top first. I want to lift people up, not step on their faces.

I don't know what to do or to think. That fork in the road is still daunting in the distance and everyday it gets a little bit closer.